
Sorry I haven't been around, Internet. I've been trying not to die. So most of you are perhaps mildly aware that I've been quite sick for the better part of 6 weeks, now (cold, ear infection, flu, flu, flu, bronchitis? maybe pneumonia...) -- if you weren't aware, now you are.
ANYWHO.
SO looooooooong story short -- I wound up in the ER yesterday. My boyfriend got to the point where he was pretty terrified that I couldn't stop coughing for about a half an hour straight or so, I wasn't sleeping at night, been sick for so long -- any number of totally valid reasons, really. But, I digress.... So he gave me cab money and insisted I go to the ER.
First of all, this was quite possibly the most dehumanizing moment in my entire life. The looks they gave me when I told them I didn't have insurance, the act of sitting in that waiting room and literally watching every SINGLE person get seen by the doctor before me..... maybe everyone feels like this in the ER waiting room -- but I watched that room fill up and empty out twice -- and not just people leaving, people getting admitted. People seeing doctors. Everyone's named was called but mine. See, I was placed on what was called "Quick Track" which is just the first 3 tiny rooms inside the entrance to the actual ER. The meanwhile, watching giggling, kissing couples get admitted, crazy old people who screamed at other people in the waiting room and cussed others out for no reason, they took everything ahead of me. Medicaid, Medicare, it was blatantly obvious.
I'm sitting in the waiting room, coughing my brains out for close to 3 hours, crying on and off the entire time because I have a migraine and the lights were awful and I wasn't getting seen, shaking because I was so fucking cold, and they KNEW I had been sick for well over a month. Nothing. Fucking horrible.
Secondly, did you notice that part about no insurance? Yeah. So I'll get a lovely bill in the mail -- and paid 65$ out of pocket for generic medications.
But it turns out that I was on the brink of pneumonia. The doctor did chest x-rays and was extremely insistent that I return in 2 days and get seen again. She was like, "I'm really surprised you aren't in pneumonia at this point, you NEED to come back in 2 days and have a follow up to make sure it's getting better," SO that's all very exciting.
But that's been what's been going on. I've been sick as all get out and unable to really want to do anything other than lie on the couch and fade in and out of consciousness.
Entries will resume shortly! As soon as this azithromyacin kicks my ass.